And I Suck…

Mainly because I have a hard time getting shit posted here, and it’s not like I don’t have a great deal of shit going on in my head constantly either. I am going to get lots up this weekend for sure!

The Madman

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Recovery…

OK, so I am also a recovering alcoholic & addict, Alcohol was my drug of choice, for many years. I am currently a bit over 8 years sober and clean. I got started because at a young age my orthopedic doctor decided that giving a teenager with knee problems Vicadin was a good thing, turns out it was. That led to stronger drugs like Oxy. Pain meds had the opposite affect on me they should have had, it was more like speed to me, that is where the alcohol came in, I used it to bring me down and get me level. I was completely functional because I knew how much of each I needed all the time to stay even. Taking one of those things away made it a lot harder to stay even, booze was just bad. I finally decided to stop altogether once I had one too many black outs where I couldn’t remember anything.

So today, more than 8 years sober and clean and I find that I am just using other things to replace what I used to be addicted to, it is a common thing amongst us addicts to do just that. I have recognized it and now have to do something about it. Which I am doing or started to do. It really is something simple, I just have to stop buying sh*t which I really don’t need, or so I would assume it should be easy. So far so good, I can say. I think at some point in the near future I am going to have to start going back to meetings, as I haven’t been to one of those in a very long time, it might be helpful to be around more people who are well like me.

Well that is all for now, till later. I am going to try and start getting in the habit of posting something every single day, that isn’t easy for me at times but it is also something I need to start doing and I am going to do my best to do just that. Need to work towards monetizing this blog in some way because I need to earn some extra money to pay off debt, and get ahead of it. This is just part of it, also offering my services through Fiverr for doing review and editing of peoples work.

– The Madman

And it’s Monday…

Unfortunately every week starts off with a Monday, it is the most wonderful day of the week actually. NOT! So the weekend was pretty uneventful, took the dog to get groomed on Saturday followed by a trip to the range on Sunday, needed to do some shooting, but man did I suck, guess that is what happens when you don’t get there for several months. I can however blame that on my full time job which has had me traveling all over the place in the last 7 months.

The outstanding thing about this week is that I am on my final week of school, so now after 29 years I will be able to say that I completed my Associates Degree. It wasn’t easy but I can now say that I have done it. Whether or not it actually does anything for me is another story altogether, you know other than the huge amount of debt that I have been paying towards it for the last 29 years.

I don’t expect this week to be all that exciting and I am OK with that, but at this point I can now start to focus on some other things which I couldn’t because of the whole school thing, and that I am quite happy about. One of those thing is going to be developing this blog and getting to actually writing some things.

That is all for now!

Welcome to my Blog

Well, I actually started this up a few months ago with good intentions but those good intentions got pushed by the wayside due to other things that required me getting them done, which I am on the downside of getting that thing done, and what is that thing, finishing the college degree I started 29 years ago. I am currently now 1 week away from finishing. This will free up a great deal of time that I had to use for taking care of school, which I should be doing right now…LOL. I will be getting to that in a minute though of course as I first wanted to just get this done and get it started up again.

The title kind of says it all, I am kind of a mad man, partly because I am or I have sociopathic tendencies as I really don’t have much feelings when it comes to others, I don’t have an issue causing pain to others, hell sometimes I even enjoy it, I am trying to get better with that though, it is possible to get better I have found. It isn’t easy but I am working on it. That other part of being a mad man is well because I spend a lot of my time “mad” or “angry”, my anger issues are legendary in my circles but again this is something that I have spent a great deal of time working on, quitting drinking and becoming clean and sober helped this greatly, that was over 8 years ago now.

Where I am going to be going with my writing I am not sure, but first I am just going to start sharing the shit that is on my mind, or if someone tosses out a topic they would like me to post something about I will get it done and make it happen so if you happen across my page and are interested in a topic throw it out there and I will do something with it.

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