Lazy, Busy, and who knows…

Yes a bit of everything at this point. But the big point is I haven’t posted a damned thing here in the last several days. I am going to chalk most of it up to just being way to busy for my own good, followed by laziness. Most of what I have been doing is working, which has kept me quite busy while here so I don’t have a lot of time to just take a few minutes to post something.

After I get done with work it is off to home where my time is then consumed with working out, then dinner and paying attention to the wife and our puppy. And catching up on the reading I need and want to get done. In the last couple of weeks I have finished a couple of books, one being The Terminal List: A Thriller by Jack Carr, highly recommend giving this a read for sure, it was a great book. The other book I read was The Ragamuffin Gospel: Good News for the Bedraggled, Beat-Up, and Burnt Out by Brennan Manning, also an excellent read which has helped me greatly on my journey back to God.

On the fitness front, I have mainly been doing Crossfit workouts, but I am going to go back to a more strength training/power building type routine at least for a few months, I think I will benefit from it far more as though Crossfit is great it isn’t giving me what I want in terms of strength and size gains/body fat loss. I have also started this week stepping up my eating game, because I seriously haven’t been eating enough food at all and this I am going to put on my wife as she forces her restricted calorie intake on me at times because she thinks I am eating too much, when my reality is I need somewhere in the vicinity of 2500+ calories a day just to maintain. So I decided to avoid letting her dictate so much in terms of what or how I eat in order to get my shit moving in the right direction. End goal still the same 10 – 12% body fat by the end of the summer. Bodyweight isn’t important just composition.

To that end I will do the power building type routine I have done in the past focusing mostly on the big exercises 5 sets of 8 reps for each. Trying to do a couple of different exercises per body part and working each body part once per week to start. Then working my way up to twice per week if I see fit. I will be including some Tabata style finishers at the end of each workout to get in necessary cardio and then doing cardio only on off days.

Well this is it for now, gotta actually get back to work and all.

Later,
The Madman

This weeks Workouts and other stuff…

Ok, I have been seriously slacking of course with keeping up on posting this stuff but here is the quick and dirty.

Monday – Elliptical for 30 Minutes (Knees were hurting like hell so took the easy way out.)

Tuesday – We took the dog for a 2 mile walk around our neighborhood because the wife had a doctors appointment after work.

Wednesday

5 Rounds for Time:
15 KB Swings – 53 lbs.
15 Push-Ups
Row 400 Meters
This was a 25 minute workout for me, the rowing seriously slows you do for sure. Even when I get a good pace going it is still hard to row 400 meters fast. Gotta work on that for sure.

Not sure what tonight will be for a workout as of yet, mainly because I tweaked my knee last night doing the KB Swings, so need to figure something out to work around that. Will see about that as I plan that later today.

So onto the other stuff, I got word the other day about a close friend passing away, we lived next to one another for decades, grew up together watched our families grow and what not. Apparently he took his own life, and that is what seriously left me speechless as it is not something I would have ever expected to hear having happened to him. Outwardly it seemed that he had it altogether for sure, but there was obviously something. But in regards to the whole suicide thing, damn people, there is nothing worth taking your own life, it is possible to recover from anything, you just have to share how you are feeling with the people around you, with professional help if that is what you need to get by but damn do something, because you are leaving people behind that love you and care for you and you shouldn’t do shit like that to them.

The other thing I am up to is reading this book, The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning (https://amzn.to/2IOu3pc) I highly recommend picking it up and giving it a read. As I have mentioned before I grew up as a Roman Catholic, and basically had those principles shoved down my throat for a long time, and at some point decided it wasn’t for me. That was around 15 or 16, and I basically turned to Satanism first Laveyan then later on Luciferianism, and with both of these it has nothing to do with believing in Satan or anything like that, but believing that you yourself are your own god. Well lately this just hasn’t been doing it for me, but being a catholic again wasn’t going to do it for me either, so with the help of a friend who turned me onto this book and some other stuff I am going to be finding my way back to God because it just seems to make sense to me at this point in my life, there was something missing, maybe this is it, maybe it isn’t. But considering myself a Christian surely isn’t going to be harmful in any way shape or form.

OK, well that is enough for now.

Later,
The Madman

 

Laziness abounds…

Yes I have been quite lazy the last few days in terms of posting. I haven’t even posted my daily workouts which I have done pretty much everyday since the last time I posted a few days ago.

Yesterday’s I would call epic, just did Military Presses but finished with the final set of about 12 total at 130 x 2, which I would consider to be pretty damn good as that is about 60% of my body weight and I was only shooting for my final to be about 50% of my body weight.

I have to make it a point to start posting a lot more often, just to get things out of my head that get in there and drive me nutty. That should technically have me writing all day long every single day though, so maybe that totally won’t work, but at least once or twice a day for sure from now on.

So one of the things on my mind which has me conflicted is something to do with religion, you see back when I was younger I was more or less force fed Catholicism up to the age of about 16 or so when I was then allowed to chose, and I quickly turned away from it in a completely opposite direction. First turning towards Laveyan Satanism, and then Wicca, then Paganism and back to Laveyan Satanism and finally to Luciferianism. Now these last two aren’t much different from one another and they both more or less have the same concept, that you are your own god, and there is no belief in a heaven or hell or a god and or devil. But now as time has gone by I find myself in conflict over my beliefs, and keep coming back to is there actually a God, is there a Devil, is there a Heaven and Hell? I know deep fucking questions! There is a part of me that now looks at things in terms of if I can have God in my life in my terms and not the way it was force fed to me then maybe I could allow myself those beliefs again. Part of me sees it, but then I want to stomp it when it pops into my head. Maybe time to start considering it again rather than stomping it out.

OK, deep subject taken care of. This weekend was fun, went to the range did some shooting, and that is always fun and a great way to do stress relief. Workouts of course are next best thing. Other fun stuff, I got laid this weekend too, always nice when that happens as well. And just to toss this out there I am reading about 5 different books, most of them are all around 50% complete, so I might write some reviews on them when I am done.

OK, all for now. More later I hope.

Later,
The Madman